Whole 30 – Kill some of the things

As I write this, I’m starting my day 6, which means I made it through Thanksgiving with my Whole 30 intact! (To be fair, I knew I would though, since I spent the day mostly alone. Don’t feel sad about that, it was my choice. :))

My sugar detox headache finally went away in the evening of day 4. Day 2 was by far the worst, a lot less on day 3 and then just a dull ache by day 4. I’m starting to feel better, except I’m tired. Which wouldn’t be so incredibly annoying if I could actually sleep!

There’s this great timeline of what to expect during your Whole 30.

So far, I’m right on track. 😉
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Whole 30 – Praying for death?

I’m now just about through my 3rd day on Whole 30 and I will tell you that last night, I was praying for death. Why you ask? One word.


Holy crap that was awful.

My headache started around 5:30pm on day 1. But I had no idea what I was in for.

Day 2… It started out as planned. By lunch time, my headache was so bad, that I was starting to get nauseous. I tried to eat my chicken zoodle soup, but I could only eat about half of it. I tried to eat a tangelo. I drank water.

It kept getting worse.

About 2pm, I could no longer even function at work. When I got home, I layed on the couch with all the lights out and an ice pack on my head. I felt like I was going to throw up every time I moved. My head felt like it was going to explode. I couldn’t get comfortable to save my life. I couldn’t eat anything. All I could do is sip water. I felt like praying for death.
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Whole 30 – Day 1

Saturday night I finished out my Day 0 prep work by setting up my Nikon on the tripod so I could take another set of before pics. (I’m hoping you can see my annoyance with myself for needing yet another set of before pics.) I wrote out the body areas (thighs, waist, hips, etc.) I wanted to measure and I got my scale and tape measure out. And then I drank what had become my standard large glass of ice cold milk before I went to bed.

Sunday morning I woke up entirely too early. There was no reason for me to be awake at 5:30am. On a Sunday. I didn’t want to get out of bed. Mostly because that meant that I needed to get on that stupid scale and the rest of the Day 1 morning measurement crap.

I have a “smart” scale by Withings. I haven’t been happy with it because it’s really annoying to function. When it actually does what it’s supposed to, it sends my weight and body fat (bio impedance) to my iPhone. On this particular morning it took about 20 minutes for the scale to “recognize” me. Honestly, it was partially because I’ve gained so much weight since the last time I used it. (The other part was wi-fi issues.)
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T minus 2 days…


I start my 100 day journey in 2 short days.  I intend to take back my life in these 100 days and I am starting it off by cutting out sugar and starting a round of Whole 30 eating.

I have already cleaned out all of the food out of my office and my apartment.  Tonight I will make a grocery list and I will go shopping on Saturday.  I will make the hard boiled eggs, beef jerky and chicken broth on Saturday.  On Sunday I will make my breakfast for the week, as well as a big batch of chicken veggie soup.

Since I’m cooking for 1 (my son will be in Michigan visiting his grandparents this coming week), I don’t actually have to cook that much.  I don’t really know how to cook one serving of anything, so there are always leftovers.  The bonus of this is that I don’t have to cook much!

Here’s my menu for week 1: Read more

Operation: Take my life back

Operation: Take my life back is no longer a top secret operation….

And since the cat is out of the bag, I might as well just shout it from my little corner of the internet…

I am going to be doing 100 days of Whole 30 starting on Sunday 11/22/15!

That puts my end date at February 29, 2016. (Leap day!)

What’s funny is the first person I told freaked out. “No! Don’t do it after the Christmas party! You won’t have any fun if you are doing Whole 30!”

It’s interesting to me how people think that you can’t have fun if you are eating healthy. Like the only thing providing the fun is the alcohol and desserts. When I was doing Whole 30 in June, I went to a potluck and had a blast. No one cared what I was (or wasn’t eating), because I didn’t call attention to the way I was eating. I just went and enjoyed myself and I enjoyed the people who were there.

Anyway… Yes, I’m going to do a Whole 30 for 100 days. Over the holidays.

I can hear you already. You are crazy! Why would you do that do yourself?

Why? Here are my whys… Read more

Taking my life back

What a difference 5 days can make!

After writing my post about how I was completely apathetic to anything related to getting back to my healthy lifestyle, the most amazing thing happened…

I reached out for help.  I’m not going to really expand on that too much more, but there are several significant and temporary “stressors” in my life right now, and reaching out for some help was the best first step I could have ever made for me.  I was quite literally the healthiest thing I’ve done for myself in months, and it had nothing to do with fitness or nutrition.

When you add to that, I’ve finally been able to get an excellent night of sleep 3 out the last 4 nights and my outlook on everything seems to have shifted.

There’s an article going around from the Thought Catalog about 26 things you can do to take your life back. (I love the Thought Catalog!  You can read the article I’m writing about here.) When I read it, I had just completely changed my hair style (#7 is change your appearance), from below my shoulders to a pretty short a-symmetrical cut… Read more


I feel completely lost on the healthy living front right now.

I’ve made couple half-hearted attempts to regain control of my eating, and to restart my fitness journey, only to be derailed by my completely lack of motivation.

I’m filled with apathy.

I want to lose weight, but not really bad enough to actually do anything about it.  I think the good news is that I’ve been binge eating less.  I’ve been cooking, but not really the kind of meals that would inspire weight loss.  (Bread and butter anyone? Mmmm…)  I’ve also gotten back in the soda habit.  You know, the soda with the red label that you can share with someone?  The kind where I’m guilty of drinking calories (so not diet soda).

I know exactly what I need to do.  I know what method of eating works best for me to melt away body fat, and I even remember how great I felt when I was eating that way, and how many yummy meals I made.  But here I am… not taking any action.

I’ve had to buy bigger sized pants because the waist of my pants was cutting into my tummy and it hurt.  I wear baggy sweaters and jackets.  I’m embarrassed.  I’m uncomfortable at this weight.  Yet, I remain completely apathetic to taking any action to change.

It’s not that I doubt my ability because I know I can do it and believe I could do it again… if I wanted to. Read more


I’ve had a rough go this last 4 years.  During that time, I’ve lost who I am.  I have been trying to find me.  I’ve been trying to find things that make me happy, that bring me joy.

One of the things I’ve done for myself this year is buy myself a Nikon D3300 camera kit.  After seeing a phenomenal nighttime photo in one of the online courses I took, I decided to get myself a tripod and remote shutter release as well.

I’ve always had some interest in photography.  When I was growing up my father had a fancy camera, and full setup.  When I was in elementary school, I did a report on Eastman Kodak and made a camera out of an oatmeal box!  My father helped me, and the model was my cabbage patch doll.  I wish I still had the photo we took!

I have never had a fancy camera.  I’ve had a few different point & shoot digital cameras, but they started collecting dust once I got my first iPhone…

Since I’ve never used a DSLR camera, I found some online photography classes to take.  While my camera has an auto mode, the whole point of my buying the DSLR camera, was to actually learn about photography and not use this camera in auto mode.

Last week I decided to enter a few of my pictures in a photography contest.  I won’t know for a couple more weeks if I won.  Also last week, I was approached by a friend of mine who asked me to take pics of her and her fiance for Christmas!

Here’s some of the photos I’ve taken so far.


This was one of the first pictures I took.  My boxer-mix, Brutus. Read more

It just wasn’t fun anymore

I started this blog in October 2009.  That’s 6 years ago!  I can barely remember the person I was back then!

You know what I do remember?  Why I started blogging.  And I know why I stopped.

I started blogging because I wanted to.  I didn’t know what I was going to write about.  I just knew I wanted to write.  And I did.  If you look at my early posts, there were some haikus, posts about how I was feeling, and posts about how I wanted to lose weight.

I remember being out doing something and thinking, I want to blog about this!  I actually tried new things, took pictures, had fun and writing was my driving force.

The point is… I wrote about whatever I wanted, and when I wanted. Read more

Moving the boulder out of my path

You’ve heard of the app Timehop?  Sometimes it’s a great app and other times, like when it reminds you that you weighed 20 pounds less a year ago, it sucks.

I officially weigh the most I have since November 2009.  I haven’t been working out and I’ve done some serious backsliding on the healthy eating.

I’m struggling with some serious self-worth issues.  Feeling like I’m worthy of good things in my life has been a lifelong struggle, and it seems to have formed into a giant boulder in the middle of my road right now.  

I really want to move that giant boulder out of my path once and for all.   Read more

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