Depression is not logical


I didn’t even see it coming on. I have to admit, I’m pretty fucking surprised. And now I’m smack in the middle of it.

What is it?


Dammit. I thought I was done with this. I thought I had protected myself from falling victim to depression’s sticky clutches.

But I was wrong.

And it doesn’t make sense to me. I just started an awesome new job with a law firm, I’ve been running again, hitting awesome PR’s at Crossfit and seeing positive changes in my body.

But depression isn’t logical.

Unfortunately, it was the death of Robin Williams and all the tweets and posts about depression that have followed that caused me to see where I really am. Most specifically, it was this post that alerted me to the fact that I was back in the clutches of depression: 21 Things Nobody Tells You About Being Depressed.  (If you are lucky enough to have never experienced clinical depression, give this a article a read.  It is a very accurate account of what I know I experience when I’m depressed.)
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5 lessons I learned from blogging about my goals

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I’ve been doing a lot of thinking (and reading) lately.  In my post, Action Time, I talk about how I’ve started many challenges and written many posts about how I’m going to reach this goal or that goal – and then I get distracted, or lose motivation or interest.

I’ve determined that this is because I have not been fully committing to setting goals in a manner consistent with crossing that finish line of reaching my goals.

By now, we’ve all heard about how important it is to write your goals down.

Quite frankly, until recently, I believed that blogging about certain goals would be enough to fulfill that important written requirement, not to mention, the accountability we all believe is there if we share our goals with others.

Well, as I’ve learned… it hasn’t been nearly enough for me.

So here are the 5 lessons I’ve learned from blogging about my goals – maybe they will help you be more effective in setting and reaching your goals!

Think big

One of the things I do when I blog about a goal, is really focus on the immediate, which for me is a mistake.  I’m not thinking big enough!  Sure I want to be able to do a strict pull-up, but I also want to eventually do a muscle up!  So, why not make the goal bigger?!  I mean, you have to achieve the goal of getting a pull-up before you can get a muscle up, but why limit your goals?  Think big!  I mean, the idea of setting a goal to complete a muscle up seems scary…

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5 Tidbits about what I’ve been up to!

I know I haven’t been posting very much, but partially that is because I’ve been really busy!  Here are a few of the things I’ve been up to the last couple of weeks!

I signed up for a half marathon!


Yes I did!  When I didn’t make it into the Nike Women’s Marathon again (the third time was not the charm in this instance), I was a little bit bummed.  I caught myself thinking about other half marathons.  I don’t know why, or what happened, but I got an itch to run, and I wanted to run another half marathon, so I signed up for the Santa Rosa Half Marathon.

This will be my 3rd time completing this course.  This was my first half marathon.  When I ran it for the second time a year later, I got my current half marathon PR of 2:03.  I’m hoping to meet or beat that time this year!  I’ve got about 6 more weeks of training, and so far all my training runs have felt great! Read more

Action Time!

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Ahh the ‘ole head in the sand routine… I’ve been living it for a while now.

I don’t know about you, but when I get overwhelmed and/or frustrated, I tend to take a denial, head in the sand approach. Right now, I am struggling in two areas of my life that are important to me and have brought me joy in the past. I’d love nothing more than to refocus my energy and make these areas of my life a source of happiness and positivity again!
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Rookie Rumble 5 – My First Crossfit Competition (Part 2)

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When I left off yesterday, I was floating on cloud 9 because I had just gotten 15 more reps than my goal and I got a power snatch PR in the first WOD of the Rookie Rumble! (If you missed part 1 – you can find it here.)

I had a little more than 2 hours before my next WOD. During that time, I drank a protein shake, cheered on my friends who were also competing and tried to relax a bit under our pop up canopy.

WOD #2 – Stars and Stripes

This was a chipper with an 8 minute time cap

  • 40 kettlebell swings 53/35lbs
  • 150m run
  • 30 goblet squats 53/35lbs
  • 150m run
  • 20 push press 75/55lbs
  • 150m run

Initial thoughts: Actually nothing about this WOD really surprised me. I knew I would be able to do everything, but likely not fast enough.
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Rookie Rumble 5 – My first Crossfit Competition (Part 1)

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Last weekend I participated in my first Crossfit competition at Hercules Crossfit. As I started writing about my experience, I realized, I was going to need to split this recap up into 3 posts.

But I will give you a spoiler… I had a freaking blast! 

I will most definitely train and compete again.

When I walked into Crossfit back in September 2013, I told that coach that I wanted to compete. That is my goal. I know I have a long way to go to get there, but that is the goal I had set for myself. I have always been a dream big kind of gal.

At the beginning of 2014, I heard about a competition specifically for Crossfit “rookies”. I checked it out. The rules are:

  • Only been doing Crossfit for about a year
  • No coaches or personal trainers
  • Never competed in an RX competition
  • Never placed top 5 in any Crossfit competition
  • Cannot RX most WODS
  • Coach must certify your eligibility

I certainly met all those requirements, so I signed up for Rookie Rumble 4, which took place in the beginning of March. However, I ended up having a medical issue which required surgery in mid-February, so I was unable to compete in that Rookie Rumble.
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Windsor Green 5k – race recap


About a month ago, I signed up for a couple of 5K races.  I did the first one, the Girls on the Run 5K about 3 weeks ago.  Last week was the 2nd one, the Windsor Green 5K.  Both of these races were new courses for me.  I’ve run a lot of the local races over the last few years, but never these two – until now. :)

I really surprised myself with my 27:42 finish time at the Girls on the Run 5k at the end of April. Not including any running during Crossfit WODs, I did 2 “training” runs in the 3 weeks between the Girls on the Run 5k and the Windsor Green 5k. During one run I ran 2 miles at a 8:38 minute/mile average pace – which was pretty amazing. During the second training run, I did a 1 mile warmup run and then ran four ¼ mile sprints. My pace on the sprints was: 7:07, 7:17, 7:29 and 7:36 – also, pretty amazing pace for me!
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Why I got another Road ID


Back when I was running I always wore a Road ID. In fact back when I was running, I purchased 3 different Road ID’s. 2 different styles of bracelets (the Sport and the Slim) and one dogtag style necklace. I loved all 3 of them.  I loved the product so much back then (and still do), that I became a Road ID affiliate.  This means that if you purchase a Road ID using my link, I get a small commission.   :-) 

So, if you decide to purchase one of these wonderful products, I would be most appreciative if you used my affiliate link which you can find on the right side of this page!

What is a Road ID? 

A Road ID is a “durable, rugged, athletic, fashionable line of identification gear.”  (From the Road ID website).

Why a Road ID?

Road ID’s are marketed mainly to cyclists and runners.  Think about it… you are running or cycling by yourself and the unthinkable happens… an accident that leaves you unable to give any information about yourself.  What if you had allergies to medication and they didn’t know?  I mean it’s no fun to think about this kind of thing, but for me, having some sort of emergency ID on me gave me peace of mind.
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April Paleo Challenge – The results!

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Wow!  I’m super excited about my results! (Left: end of March 2014. Right: end of April 2014.) And I plan on keeping this going!  I made a few tweaks, but they are healthy tweaks as you will see!

The Challenge:

Eat paleo for 30 days.  Strict.  (Caveat:  4/4 we went to a baseball game and before committing to this challenge knew I would be having 2 beers and 1 naughty food, so rather than start my challenge on 4/5, I just knew this would be the one pre-planned cheat.)

Here’s the total of my non-paleo food in April:

4/4 – 1 beer and shared some garlic fries at the game

4/5 – justified frozen yogurt since I only had 2 of my 3 cheats on 4/4.  Then, I had In N Out for dinner.  Double double protein style and french fries.  The burger would have been okay, except I didn’t realize that they put cheese on it until I got home.

4/24 I made paleo rolos.  This was the first treat I’d made all month.  They had dark chocolate and I only ate 2 out of the 8.  I don’t technically consider it a cheat since it was a “paleo” recipe and all, but I probably could have waited another week to make these.

Tweaks to my diet…

At the beginning of April I read the Paleo Athlete by Stephanie Gaudreau (post on that coming soon) and it was very eye opening.  One of the things I have been worried about since going paleo is my carb levels.  As in way too low.

I decided to do a little tracking and just as I suspected, I wasn’t even reaching 80 grams of carbs a day.  As much as I’m WODing and training (and adding in some running), I need more than 80 grams of carbs a day.  So after getting some advice from Stephanie (she’s amazing btw!) I decided not to wait until the end of the 30 days before adding in some white rice and potatoes.

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Fitness – #dowhatyoulove


I have come to realize that when it comes to fitness (and probably every area of life), that if you do not love what you do, then it is more difficult to stay consistent.


When I was in love with running, I looked forward to every time I ran. I ran consistently 3 times a week. I got up early, or figured out a way to get my run in around other plans. It was important to me and I loved it, so I found a way to do it. I talked about running with my friends and on social media. I blogged about running. I was passionate about it and it was easy to see.

2011 – Happy runner with a shiny new medal & matching half mary PR!

When I fell out of love with running, going for a run became a chore. It was easy to come up with excuses to skip it. I didn’t get out of bed early.
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